Melody itches but she's still alive, in SHARING 465

[Lynx]

There are many things God created, that were changed when sin marred the world. 

[taco_harvell]

I could really use your prayers today. I am headed into work soon hurting and frustrated. My ankle is still hurting terribly and it's hard to walk. My job has me on my feet for eight hours. I can't afford a doctor visit. This injury occurred on the job and they have made no effort to even right up an accident report. Pray God gives me and my boss wisdom on how to handle this and that I don't hurt that foot more by going in today. I have got very little rest because of the pain in it. I need healing and strength!!

Sorry to be a downer this early in the morning.

[Newsman]

Praying, Brother!


John   

[Melody]

It's probably obvious but wow, I am very unintelligent.  I got very overwhelmed last night looking over the math sample problems for the test I have to take as a step of going back to school.  I was stumped on what was labeled "elementary" math.  I want to know what cos/sin/tan has to do with everyday stinking life?  And why I need to know these things reguardless of what degree I'm going toward?  I think the college thing is totally corrupt... lol 

Problem 1: When I'm overwhelmed, I cry.  I cannot cry in the middle of a class.

I don't think I'm worried about failing God, I don't think he cares about college specifically.  But I am feeling stressed that I will fail my husband.  I HAVE to rise to the occasion of his direction that we're going.  Blech, pass the tissue.

[Roscoe]

It's probably obvious but wow, I am very unintelligent.  I got very overwhelmed last night looking over the math sample problems for the test I have to take as a step of going back to school.  I was stumped on what was labeled "elementary" math.  I want to know what cos/sin/tan has to do with everyday stinking life?  And why I need to know these things reguardless of what degree I'm going toward?  I think the college thing is totally corrupt... lol 

Problem 1: When I'm overwhelmed, I cry.  I cannot cry in the middle of a class.

I don't think I'm worried about failing God, I don't think he cares about college specifically.  But I am feeling stressed that I will fail my husband.  I HAVE to rise to the occasion of his direction that we're going.  Blech, pass the tissue.

I really understand....I'm struggling with the same issue. I'm about to decide to pass on the whole thing. For me, the main reason I want a degree is vanity, just because no one in my immediate family has one, save my uncle. It won't make a whit of difference in my pay, and I'm too far down the career path to change now and lose my retirement..

[MsJennJenn]

I think God cares about college. He cares about everything we do. I think if we're going to further our education, to enhance our knowledge, to pursue it to attain new career opportunities to support ourselves and our families I think God is pleased with the decision and honors it.

Isn't there a scripture about always pursuing knowledge and gaining wisdom and knowledge in things?

[The Purple Fuzzy]

I think college is great for some folks but you don't HAVE to got to college.  There are other options.  So the main thing is to go after God's will in YOUR life which won't be the same as His will in someone else's life.

[Lynx]

There's a verse about studying to show yourself approved, but that references a broader concept than college.  The first question is the one Roscoe was obliquely posing:  "Why am I going to college?"  For some, God wants them in places to which college will open the doors.  For others it would be a waste of money and time.  And tylenol. 

[Melody]

Exactly. It's not that God doesn't care about knowledge but that most certainly is not limited to a public academic venue.  So I know that whether I was to go to college, a tech school, or an apprenticeship, it's not what specifically I choose.  I do love to learn, but about things that matter, when it's coming out of an income made for a family of 4.2 (I figure financially, Ollie our dog, counts for something... hehehehe).

A number of variables make this more stressful for me and I actually do not know why I would go to college or what for other than to be able to get a better job than at Wal-Mart.  And if I had the opportunity to work somewhere I would like it to be in the office/administration with bilingual opportunity- type of job.  The word is that employers want to see degrees, not specific classes.  Which I don't really understand. 

So. It appears as though I need to aim for an associates in something administrative. Which is mostly generic classes, not actually much toward the subject.  However, the prerequisites for any degree are generally alike.  That is retarded to me and simply a way to take advantage of people by making them take unrelated classes for a degree in their field.  This would probably be all well and fine if I were rich and intelligent.  In which case I would not be going back to school.

There is kind of a "What else is there to do with my life" nagging voice... longterm.  Yes, I know homeschooling my child, having a pt job cleaning the church, keeping the home for my family, being a helpmeet in my husband's ministry, being a part of the praise team at church, is doing something.  It doesn't seem to be enough, though it can potentially take up all my time. 

I don't think I have the right words.  I want to do something greater for God.  And it has to be something that still allows me to not neglect my other roles and responsibilities.  My husband has set a direction and I am excited about that!! In so many ways.  That includes though me going back to school.  I'm sure years from now should the Lord tarry, it'll be obvious that God was working something for His glory while I was crying and stressing over triggonometry. lol

[Heather]

Insert generic rant about working at my job on a Monday!!!!!!

Ok now that that is out of the way.

I had quite a few people from church txt and call me yesterday. It appears a few people actually care whether I'm there or not. Most importantly the Pastor and his wife. So I'm strapping up my bootstraps, removing my heart from my sleeve and sucking it up. If God is for me, who can be against me!!! (Including His 'saints')!!

[MelodyB]

Good!

*HUGS* Heather.

[MelodyB]

Guess what!? I have a great announcement!


Our toilet flushes! Whoot!!


Dad got someone to work on it today and I have just been amazed at how it flushes really well. I am so happy.



Now I can go to bed.

[Heather]

*HUGS* Mel. Glad your toiley flushes!!

We apparently had home repairs around here today too. Mom was complaining saying I'd made the power bill go up the whole 8 days I was here on her last billing cycle by $100. I barely use my lights in my bedroom or even my tv for that matter. And I know way beyond better to ever touch her thermostat. Lo and behold, her hot water heater had strung a leak. So safe to say I got a much needed apology from her.

[SippinTea]

Insert generic rant about working at my job on a Monday!!!!!!

Ok now that that is out of the way.

I had quite a few people from church txt and call me yesterday. It appears a few people actually care whether I'm there or not. Most importantly the Pastor and his wife. So I'm strapping up my bootstraps, removing my heart from my sleeve and sucking it up. If God is for me, who can be against me!!! (Including His 'saints')!!

Heather, I love you. Really. And I think that may be my favorite post of yours - ever. Oh and btw... a certain box got put in the mail today. 

[Lynx]

Guess what!? I have a great announcement!


Our toilet flushes! Whoot!!


Dad got someone to work on it today and I have just been amazed at how it flushes really well. I am so happy.



Now I can go to bed.

WOOT!
People can't really appreciate the sentiment behind that statement unless they have experienced plumbing problems before.  As one who has, I say again, WOOT!

[MelodyB]

I'm glad the toilet is fixed cause I've been sick all night.

So tired. Dropped dad off at dialysis, and headed home. Got to take mom to Dr in awhile, then pick dad up, then take him to the hospital for a surgery on his port in his arm. Lord. Gonna be a long day.

[The Purple Fuzzy]

  I saw about 4 hot air balloons on my way to work.  Hope to see more tomorrow.

[Heather]

I'm so excited about my package from Ruby!!!!!! Woo-hoo!!!

I've been at work 2 hours and I already want to slap my co-employees. Grrrr.

I will be picking up some kennel hours on the weekends. That'll be good. Extra money and Dr Allen said I can work around church. Like on Sunday's the early shift is normally 8-11 but I can come in as early as I want to be able to make it to church. I come to see/care for my dog anyway. Might as well get paid for it.

[MelodyB]

Well. I'm waiting on dad to get out of dialysis. And I have observed in the past months that there is a large amount of young black males that go in and out of here for treatment. More of them than any other age group of any other race. I find that fascinating and may need to research that later when I have time. Is it just coincidental to this area? Or are their kidneys more fragile than others? Something to ponder.

And my gripe for today...on top of myself being sick, mom is too "sick" to come with me and get dad and go to the hospital today. She didnt go to her dr and have her bloodwork done either. The last time he had surgery, she didn't go and it hurt him. BADLY. And here she is again, laying in the bed and leaving ME to be the wife and take care of him. I was completely ALONE last time, and it looks that way again.

SMH. She is impossible and it makes me have bad feelings towards her.

Just being honest.

[MsJennJenn]

*hugs* my Melbs!
You are doing great Mel. I'm amazed at the way you take care of your Dad! And you do it selflessly!
You are awesome!!!!!

[Melody]

*leaves HUGS*  especially for Mel.  I'm sorry you have to deal with that aspect of already caring for your Dad.  You are one strong lady.


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I have wondered as of late about the prayers we all pray, presumeably about God helping us to make it to heaven, to be what He wants us to be, to bear His fruit.  And then we all have very diverse situations but they all require many of the same principles we need to be ready for the rapture, if we learn them.  So much so that I have wondered if any situation is any more significant than than the maturing, self sacrifice, and forgiveness it demands of us to overcome it.  And I wonder if it would lessen the stress of it if we/I looked at it that way? 

I don't know, I don't have a conclusion but I'm praying about it because my world is changing and it's stressing me out... lol  I know this world is not our home.  I know this life is one giant choice to where we'll spend eternity.  Which brings up one more question I have.  I know that we shall be known as we are known.  I know we'll be judged of our works and whether God acknowledges that He knows us intimately. (Depart from me, I never knew you/ Well done thy good and faithful servant) I know that there is no remission of sin/repentance after we are dead.  So I wonder, aside from the FINALLY being able to see Him face to face, aside from having understanding of things and spending eternity with our dear Jesus, will we grow closer to Him?  Will our intimacy increase other then being in His presence?  I get the impression that how we die, is how we are for eternity.  Our sins are already forgiven NOW.  We are able to walk in the Spirit now, though it's far more challenging. What will be different between us and Jesus other than the realized salvation we already have and no more sin to contend with?

That begs the question of that aside from being WITH Christ in heaven, is how intimate I become with Him here on earth also how intimate we'll be for eternity?  We know the least shall be greatest and the greatest on earth, the least. That tells us we will not all be on the same level or honor with Him. If that is the case then I can't put off deepening my walk with God because of trials that have to be gotten through till I get to heaven.  But I must endure each trial as actual growth, seeking for a Word in it all, so that it's actually worth something besides, "I survived."

I guess this is turning into a Bible study... lol  But my goal can't just be to get through this life and finally get to Jesus.  There has to be more or the trials here on earth seem futile.  But if they increase me, if they draw me closer to Him, then they are a blessing.  I'm leaving it open ended cause I'm not sure if I exactly percieve it right though I know my desire is right.

I guess I'm searching for purpose in my challenges so that their not in vain... lol

[okieoliveoyl]

Guess what!? I have a great announcement!


Our toilet flushes! Whoot!!


Dad got someone to work on it today and I have just been amazed at how it flushes really well. I am so happy.



Now I can go to bed.

you could have just lit it on fire...it would have at least made you feel better.... *grin*

[mini]

Guess what!? I have a great announcement!


Our toilet flushes! Whoot!!


Dad got someone to work on it today and I have just been amazed at how it flushes really well. I am so happy.



Now I can go to bed.

you could have just lit it on fire...it would have at least made you feel better.... *grin*

And theres that...

[MelodyB]

Hahaha! Indeed!

[MelodyB]

They just took him back. It will be awhile before they release him.