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The more I talk to people in general, the more I realize that there's some severe depression and trouble floating around recently.

Friends in real life in many different states, friends on GP, and other friends are battling depression and worthlessness and feelings of failure.

How are you trying to combat it?  What's going on in your life?

I prayed
and prayed
and prayed
and things got worse
and I prayed
and prayed
and things got worse, so bad in fact I thought it was over and all my dreams were gone and I supposed to give up
and I prayed... and God said "okay" to my dreams... and instead of "okay, in 2-3 yrs" like I was praying for... he said "okay, in three months" 

so I moved 500 miles... to where I belong

and I'm all better now  :grin:  Praise God!


breakthroughs are there, seek God, be willing to change and give up everything, trust God
prayer works :thumbsup2:

Not facing it, stuffing in deep down inside and hiding from it is working ok for me. See -------> :grin:

I was stubborn and it took a HUGE wake up call and God breaking me completely for me to try to overcome. 

I am a different person than I use to be--and I am happier than I have been in years.

I deal with depression on a daily basis. I was actually at the ER on Sunday night because of it.

For me, it's very frustrating, because I feel fine for a bit, and then, it hits me so hard it knocks me right down.

I've battled depression off and on since high school.  The depression with me has been mainly related to spiritual issues and feeling like I was stuck on the hamster wheel of life going no where fast.

As far as how I've dealt with it.  I've been on medication for it.  I've been in counceling. This last bout of depression and suicidalness that hit me I ended up in counceling and getting annointed and prayed for at church.  Then when it would try to hit me again I'd contact someone and have them pray for me.  Took time but I'm not finding myself wanting to end my life here lately and I'm actually looking forward to moving on with my life.

Quote from: Sister_Mom on September 05, 2007, 11:19:22 PM
Not facing it, stuffing in deep down inside and hiding from it is working ok for me. See -------> :grin:

:headrub:




I battle it from time to time, wondering where I am headed, and why, and when will I get there.

:sadbounce:

I think from time to time we all get to feeling down, or not feeling like ourselves, or just feel like everything is going wrong. Sometimes we feel like we just want to stick our head in the sand or lock ourselves in a room for a week or so. But depression is something that runs much deeper than that. I believe the first choice sums it up pretty good by saying you're feeling like you're losing your mind, feeling like everything around you is so bad or so wrong that it's hard to separate reality from your mind's imagination of what's really happening.

So how do you know when you've crossed the line of just being down over to actual depression?

when it doesn't go away?
you stay near tears all the time?
get exhausted easily... or just stay exhausted all the time, no matter how much you rest?
feel like you've lost your mind?
you cease to care about anything?
when you see bridges you're tempted to drive off them?
when you see large trucks you're temped to pull in front of them?

thats what it was for me anyway
then I claimed that stuff about "abundant life" and "joy" and "peace" for myself
and God knew I'd had enough and brought me through and out

Quote from: Amelia Bedelia on September 06, 2007, 08:20:50 PM
when it doesn't go away? Yes.
you stay near tears all the time? Yes.
get exhausted easily... or just stay exhausted all the time, no matter how much you rest? Yes.
feel like you've lost your mind? Yes.
you cease to care about anything? Yes.
when you see bridges you're tempted to drive off them? Yes.
when you see large trucks you're temped to pull in front of them? Yes.

But... that makes two of us that are coming out on top! :)   :clap:

*Hugs* Mary

:beret:

Quote from: MelodyB on September 06, 2007, 07:57:40 AM

Quote from: Sister_Mom on September 05, 2007, 11:19:22 PM
Not facing it, stuffing in deep down inside and hiding from it is working ok for me. See -------> :grin:

:headrub:




I battle it from time to time, wondering where I am headed, and why, and when will I get there.

:sadbounce:

*starts singing*

Ooooooooooooooh!  When I get WHEEEEEEERE I'm goin'
There'll be only happy tears!

:clap:

I love that song!  :-)

You know, just last night I got a call from yet another friend.  I hadn't heard from her in MONTHS.  She's been going through such severe struggles that I was absolutely floored!  This is just amazing to me how many people in the Body are being attacked right now!

Quote from: NessasMama on September 06, 2007, 12:10:32 AM
I deal with depression on a daily basis. I was actually at the ER on Sunday night because of it.

For me, it's very frustrating, because I feel fine for a bit, and then, it hits me so hard it knocks me right down.

**HUGS** NessasMamma

Thanks Rainbow for the hug!!!!!  :grin:

I have dealt with depression for I don't know how long to be honest. I am on medicine for it too. Supposedly the chemicals in my brain are out of whack. That's the medical explanation of it all. But sometimes I wonder if I truly would surrender every part of my life to God if I would see a big difference? I don't know. That's just what I wonder sometimes.

When I get sad I think of this song,

Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.

 :o         :cry2:

My Mommy used to  LOVE that song, Amanda!

NM: Sometimes I think you're right.  Full surrender does indeed help you make huge strides toward bringing you out of depression.

:sadbounce:

Quote from: RainbowJingles on September 07, 2007, 04:47:17 AM
Full surrender does indeed help you make huge strides toward bringing you out of depression.

Honestly, that's what brought freedom for me. There was a piece of my life that I hadn't truly given to God, and until I did, I was completely miserable.

yeah, seemed like when God saw that I was really ready to give up all my hopes and dreams and desperate to just do what he wanted and that I would give up

thats when I got it all  :grin:

but first I had to be completely open and surrender and seek

when it doesn't go away?  Definatley - it goes away for a while and then returns

you stay near tears all the time?  yep

get exhausted easily... or just stay exhausted all the time, no matter how much you rest? yep

feel like you've lost your mind?  yep - not uncommon for me to feel physically shaky and like I'm about to go to peices and not be able to face things

you cease to care about anything? yep - or in my case angry over things all the time

when you see bridges you're tempted to drive off them?
when you see large trucks you're temped to pull in front of them?
Yep I've had similar thoughts to these last 2 questions

I was told back in 97 that I had severe depression, I was on medication until my insurance ran out but things seemed to go ok since then, There are times lately I think I might need to go back to the Dr for it, but with some other things going on I am kind of hesitant to

depression is no fun and can be really serious at times...jus do what i do...go job and listen to your favorite NON emo or depressing music  :thumbsup2: :thumbsup2: get out and do somthing go on a date keep your mind busy

Keep praying and holding on. God always comes through.

Lately His words have been on my mind "In weakness my strength is made perfect"

You need to see a doctor. Are you in the place in your life where you could be in peri-menopause? That can do a number on your mind. Actually, any kind of a hormone problem can do that to you. Have you been checked to see if you're perhaps hypothyroid? The doctor doesn't automatically check for it. You have to, in some cases, demand it, even though it's just part of a blood work-up. PCOS
(Polycystic Ovary Syndrome)  causes some of the same mental problems.

Rule out any physical problems first, then see if it's really depression, or messed up hormones or other bodily functions. Diabetes can do that to your mind, too.

It's been checked. I've had a kidney infection for about five months now, it's just finally starting to go away. They did a blood test on me where she marked almost every test on the paper (imagine my bill for that one! lol). SO it turns out there's nothing wrong with me. My doctor says it's purely situational which is why I've been in counseling.

I'm suffering from depression too. I hate it. I feel like nothing is ever gonna get better and whats the sense of going on most days. I'm even on meds for mine, but, I haven't had them adjusted since I got out of the hospital 2 1/2 yrs. ago.

**puts Nessi and NessasMomma on her prayer list**

Depression stinks.

*holds her nose*

I'm dealing with mild depression again.  Mainly it seems to be draining me of my energy.

Post-holiday letdown/blahs don't exactly help, either.

**HUGS** BSR

This the biggest dragon I fight DAILY.

Lately (because of the death of my friend Lisa) it does seem to be a struggle -- just stupid little stuff like pink sparkly yarn (her favorite color), any reference to The Book of Mormon (she was LDS), or even Turtle Chex Mix sets me off!

It's just rough.   And being at SCA events without my SCA family makes it worse.

If I get bad again, I must say that I do have a pastor who actually is wanting to check in with me regularly.   That's more special then I know.    He's been doing a lot of counseling with me about wounds so some stuff is getting better.

I guess I'm starting to make my peace with the fact that I may struggle with this forever.   Or God may heal me.   It may be the "thorn in my flesh"

Nai

I've pretty much had to battle the depression on my own since my is primarily related to spiritual issues.  I feel like if I open up to folks at church that they'll pressure me back towards the very things that sent me into depression and suicidalness in the first place.

I finally went to my pastor and said I was afraid of sliding downward again.

This for me is a first.   I'm not one to go and see my pastor like that and definitely not one to open up -- been trying to hide it.

His words, among other things, "Never tell yourself that you're alone" and that several others in our church battle this.

I'm blessed in my current situation I must say.    But it's a struggle right now, and some of it is just grieving.

Nai

How's your heath been?  I remember you were struggling with some stuff awhile back. That surely doesn't help.

The PCOS is at least for now under control.   Unmedicated but not acting up particularly badly.

And the change in area has been good for me.    Fewer allergens here.

Just the death of a friend can completely trigger stuff.

Nai